Friday, April 21, 2006
Getting my life settledbeen a while since i blogged.
here's a few things
1) met a cool babe I hope 2 know better
2) got my medical review done. Had the guts to tell my RSM that I DON'T CARE WHERE U BRING ME! I WANA POST OUT!
3) Slowly but surely getting more involved in ebay, Google, and website building business opportunities.
i'm now considered highly charged.
Suppressing my ego and looking at oneself and honestly answering questions have been very fruitful.
One moment I get pissed when I do things and things don't turn out right. I'm so dissatisfied when I don't achieve certain things. The next moment, I thank God for reinvigorating my hunger in life. At least these mistakes happen because I move myself so I should be happy that I'm doing something abt my life!
A relentless pursuit of learning new ways to achieve things is what I admire about myself hahah... This is not ego. There is a difference. Ego is when you're wrong and refuse to admit it even when the courts or heavens have proven you to be so.
Such unnecessary stubbornness.
Pride in working and looking up to God and telling him,
" I'm a sinful child. I have my flaws. But I'm doing something about it. Pls grant that time will not take me to you before I achieve certain things that will only be of happiness to you"
I don't go church. Compulsory obligatory mass? Gives me even more reason not to go. To go because one is told to or feel obligated to is better not 2 do so @ all. I'm not the man God wants me to be... yet...
I WILL NOT GO BACK TO MY FATHER'S HOUSE UNTIL I CAN COME BACK AND FEED THE FAMILY A MILLION TIMES OVER AND BUILD ANOTHER HOUSE FOR HIM!
i call this, purging of hypocrisy.
I can't stand such hypocrisy. I need to cast it away from my soul.