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Gabriel Pang
- All Bout The MAN...
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An insatiable beast...
A compassionate sadist...
A generous miser...
A perverted angel...
An upright devil...
Famous Quote
If people are good
only because they fear punishment,
and hope for reward,
then we are a sorry lot indeed.
---Einstein
my poetry - http://poeticpandemonium.blogspot.com
my writers blog - http://watanabekaninabe.blogspot.com
Dragonball After GT, ,my own story - DragonballNexGen.blogspot.com
Wishes
- Global widespread use of biodiesel & other alternative fuels
- UN hits its millenia goals
- Prosperity & peace in Middle East & Africa
- Peace within & without
Aspirations
Freelance webdesigner (ALMOST DONE BUT EVEN BETTER! READ AS NET-TREPREUNER!)- Freelance salsaroe instructer(2 year goal by 2008)
- Volunteer for Africa's aid
- Volunteer for Green Volunteers
- Hit that elusive note - i must b real tenor!!!
Material Wish List
- Get e 12 Kobuki Comics
- Get a PDA Phone
Get a DigiCam- Get a DVD writer
- Get a New Hard disk
- Get a Dog
Get more RAM n various upgrades - Get another computer
- Get a Dog
- Get a Chinchilla
- Get a lappy(computer not the dog)
- Get a TOYOTA PRIUS
- Get a Mazda RX-8
- Get a Daimler Chrysler Grand Voyager
- Get a new blind for the balcony
- Get a makeover for my house
- Get some more pants(i've put on 1.5 inch 2 my waist n 8kg)
- Earn lots when I start my business
Personal Wish List
- Get a Degree
- Get a gf
- Get another gf! (kidding)
- Get 6 pack
- Get a tan
- Get a home business of 5-6 digit figure income monthly
Bookworm List
- Read the Dune chronicles
- Read the Foundation chronicles
- Read the Robot chronicles
- Read the Narnia chronicles
- Read the all of Gabriel Garcia Marquez
- Read the Dragons of Pern chronicles
- Read the Ninja chronicles
- Read the National Georg monthly
- Read Tony Buzan
Archive
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
LOVE & HATE (I'LL GET OVER IT... BUT LET ME RANT)
i nv tot i'd say this... but i noe i hav a real prob... actually some real probs.... i am this insatiable beast.... i hav this insane infatuation with structuredness yet i'm also this insane man who's always doing compassionate things inspite of wat i say to try 2 push such structuredness into things... kinda a good form of hypocrisy actually... i ask ppl 2 take action against other ppl but the kinda of action i desire is not wat ppl can think of... it's pretty gentle yet firm... such an oxymoronic mindset i hav...
n my family sux.... yes u heard me... HATE N LOVE THEM.... weird huh?
i love em so much i signed on army so my family can live more peacefully... HAHA... 2 my dad only 2 peaceful.... my mum stil struggling 2 pay off his debts while he spends on God noes wat! n considering he does some "outside" income as wel... n takes double shifts @ times n even does 2 jobs if he can... WHERE E $ GOES TO MAN?!?! my mum's so sad.... 2nd Dec... their wedding anniversary n i'm havin guard duty... if not i'd go dinner with my mum... Y????? COS DADY'S TOO BUSY WORKING 2 GO WITH HER! ANYWAY ... THEY DON'T SLEEP IN THE SAME ROOM ANYMORE.. THEY DON'T TALK ANYMORE... but we ALL noe it's a lame excuse! HE COMPLAINS THAT MY MUM ASKS HIM FOR MONEY N TAT HE PAYS THE HOUSE BILLS??? FOR GOD'S SAKE!!! SHE'S PAYING EVERYTHING ELSE FOR U U MAN WHORE!
TO TIK I RESPECTED U U SONOABIATCH!
I SOMETIMES TRULY WANA BLOW MY HEAD OFF... DUNNO HOW 2 TAKE IT... EVERYTHIN I DO I DON'T TIK OF SELF I TIK OF THEM FIRST... ESP WHEN COMES 2 LIFE DECISIONS.... MUST MAKE IT RICH! MUST CHANGE MYSELF! COS NOBODY WANA CHANGE!.... GOD WILL MAKE A WAY...
HOW DO I CHOOSE SIDES?!?!?
I NOE GOD SAYS HE'LL ABANDON E HERD TO FIND E LOST SHEEP... HENCE I'M BLINDLY USING THAT BLIND FAITH IN SOME THINGS NOW.... BUT I'M CONSTANTLY SEEING PPL GOING AGAINST ME LIK I'M ALSO MADE OF SHIT... BIRDS OF A FEATHER FLOCK TOGETHER... YET I NOE I'M DOIN RITE... I GOTTA HAV FAITH... SOME THINGS PPL DON'T UNDERSTAND...
I REALLY ENVY FAMILIES WHO CAN SIT DOWN N EAT DINNER TOGETHER... LAUGH... TALK OPENLY 2 EACH OTHER... SO BEAUTIFUL... I DON'T REMEMBER SUCH A DAY.... IF THERE'S MORE THAN 2 PPL IN THE HOUSE ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE.... I WANA STAY AWAY... YET I DON'T WANA STAY IN CAMP... I'D RATHER MY OWN HOUSE.... I WANA DO MY OWN THINGS TO HELP MYSELF GET OUTTA LIFE'S DITCHES...
I USED TO REBEL IN A GOOD WAY... I MAKE MYSELF LIVE AS BEST A HUMAN BEING CAN... I IMMENSE MYSELF IN GOD'S TEACHINGS... I JUS TEL MYSELF THAT REAL LOVE N REAL HAPPINESS IS POSSIBLE... HOPING TO LIVE LIFE AS ACCORDING... NOW I'M NOT SO SURE... I C MY PARENTS N I'M PRETTY PESSISMISTIC... I CAN'T CONTROL MY DESIRES.... I DON'T NOE LOVE NO MORE... I SO MUCH WAN A WOMAN 2 TALK 2 TO HAV A SHOULDER TO REST ON... TO ALSO B A SHOULDER TO HER... BUT I HAV PRETTY HIGH STANDARDS... YET I CAN LIK A LOT OF PPL WHO DON'T FIT E BILL... I FEEL I MITE NOT B ABLE 2 COMPROMISE N END UP LIK E UNSATISFIED, INSATIABLE FATHER OF A DADDY I HAV... HE'S NV SATISFIED WITH WAT WE DO... OR WAT MY MUM DOES... COMPLAIN LIK HELL... HE HIMSELF NOT SO GREAT WAT... MUTHAFURKER...
7:15 AM
