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Thursday, November 03, 2005

never stop dreamin. never say die.

in my limited life experience
my only enemy is myself
my only devil to success is my ego
my only social handicap is my lack of e ability 2 talk cock
without offendin someone.

cos frm e beginnin
when i look @ my life
i was shy but always having frens 2 chit chat n talk cock with
meanin,
i've definitely quite good social skills since i was small kid
i made rich friends feel good abt emselves when i was younger

now must rediscover that ability 2 soothen a person
n always stand their ground

i actually hav so many tricks in my bag that i don't use
cos of lack of experience of knowin e success rate of such skills
so far so good
ppl with egos r easy
it's e ppl wifout them that's hard 2 talk 2.
another thing i must improve on is my mandarin
china WILL b big if it isn't considered big now
talkin 2 ppl n havin plain chit chat with anybody
n everybody is good skill 2 master

Raymond does it with a charm.

i've always dreamt of big things
n my goals r always selfless
so when i hav e opportunity 2 learn frm ppl 2 do things
2 help me attain those dreams
i'll gladly take their advice
cos they're ppl who're successful in tat business.

another thing i must learn is my language

words lik
failure
idiot
small
etc
r 2 b phased out frm my daily lang
esp of myself
ppl who always say this cannot that cannot
will always cannot
e reason i 've been able 2 do so many things in life
is cos
i always hav an eager ability 2 learn new things
but hav not attain any sustainable succcess (if u can call em tat) in em is tat
i nv really had e perseverance 2 do em.
But e greatest gift of a human being?
they can learn 2 overcome their past
but mastering the present
and thus conquerin e future.
i've done e first step
i've killed e ego
i don't fight anymore
pointless
i've controlled tat portion of emotional intelligence
patience
ability 2 press "stop" when angered
cos my whole family is a very quick tempered lot
except me
breakin frm familial trends if they're destructive 2 one's ability 2 succeed is key
2 a future of one.
now i'll safely take e nex few steps
i've always done some pretty stupid things
nobody appear 2 forgive me n give me tat support
i'll get it frm within lor
so easy
self-motivation

good thing abt me is tat frm since i've had conscience,
i've always known n prayed tat
in order 2 help e world
i must hav a global-conscious mindset
selfless heart
ego-less being
spirit-filled passion
and
A LOT OF MONEY FRM A GLOBAL BUSINESS

in other words
i frm a small kid tot tat ppl who're priests/nun/NGO volunteers/ "all other small helpers in this catergory"/etc r really stupid if they wana REALLY help e world.
it was very logical 2 me tat in order 2 make a REAL difference in e world
u either better hav a huge messiahc or political influence
or
own a global business

got $
can save lives.

tat's y i respect Bill Gates
tat's y
when now i can smell e aroma now's within my grasp
but only a matter of time
NOTHING WILL STAND IN MY WAY!

selfish ppl wil only achieve success 4 short periods of time
check out a friend i noe
grand father pass away leaving millions
now e family r separated cos they fightin his will
he didn't foster e right values in his family

ASSUMING
he's a selfish business who always "eat" ppl
no wonder his family now
eating him
in front of his grave.
he dead mah
not behind his back
n i assume he's dead so his spirit can see everything
but cannot do anythin abt it.
lol