Monday, October 17, 2005
A case of morals?Or a case of positive self-activation?I sometimes can't stand my indecisiveness and inexperience.
I get "psychoed" easily.
WHERE E WIND BLOWS! argh! y lik tat! lol
Lucky family & honest friends r always there to nudge me back 2 e right path.
But,
If the thing i wana do mite hav a lil dirt on e way,
but i can make things a lot cleaner not for myself
but for others in the long term,
Then y not?
Success is up 2 e individual's responsibility.
If smoking's becomes a person's master
it defeats its usefulness.
Useful? Cigarettes?
Yes! In e FARKIN CHILLIN TEMPS OF TAIWAN THEY ARE!
lol
i smoked more than my few.
But unlike wat ppl say after that, that one can get hooked after a 1st puff
I managed to break tat trend
Actually
when doin things
one must not consider fads, trends, etc
Cos YOU must remember
WHETHER OR NOT ANYTHING HAPPENS OR NOT IS UP TO THE PERSON
My father n other ppl who had MUCH more experience than me
say i don't noe anythin
Yes i don't
that's y i can b better than u
U already tik ure good.
How to learn?
Empty e cup b4 adding 2 it.
I mite b naive
but i'm willin 2 jump into e fire 2 learn.
I'm willin 2 empty myself 2 learn.
I'm VERY good @ learning new things
Tat's my greatest gift
here's my some instances on this passionate learnin but lack of
follow thru.
1. white belt in aikido who could get body slammed when even some brown belties don't get it right
2. Salsa - enough's said. my close friends don't really noe wat i'm capable of cos it's more or less or hearsay not seen. it'll all change soon. I hav a bad memory of e new slightly more advanced moves. so now if i go back i jus write em down & tik em thru lo. also, practise practise practise.
3. Sax - actually i'm doin everythin right in my learnin process. but i noe this can't b my priority. i'm doin scaling exercises n long tones 2 get my basics right. but lame thing is i don't do songs. just these exercises.
4. Singing - my repertoire, versatility and technique is above my expectations now. i don't lik my voice stil, but i tlik wat i can do with it. i mite not b pitch perfect. but who cares??? it's not my job 4 christ's sake. No worries man.
5. My html basics is very established. Cos i didn't wana learn e short cut. I bother 2 type em out n @ least edit n paste. but can go further.
6. If it's in my younger days, i was a 3yr old cartoonist who gave up @ an equally young age of a year later. i was good @ maths. i'm still good @ science tho.
7. i was an excellent defender in pri school. i was only guy who dared 2 slide tackle when i was 10yrs old. i was accurate in e tackle somemore. i hit ball not leg. i work on my technique instead of some stupid cowards who bang shoulders instead. lucky i bang back harder than em. but after a while, ppl get faster n more tricky when i switched frm rightback 2 centre back, so i hav 2 use my markin skills. now i suck @ soccer ... hehee.
8. I'M A SEX GOD!!! - jus kiddin
in e past i didn't hav e dilligence 2 succeed in em
tat's my flaw.
i'm willin 2 admit it
therefore e 1st step is complete.
Success wil take a while.
i also hav 2 plan prioritise n work on my goals.
If one noes wat he wants
he'll do everythin in his power 2 get em
every min of e day
not wastin a single sec.
priorities
1. earn money & get more contacts
2. learn environmental/charitable managing
2. html skills
3. dance/music
in e hands of e right person.
$ is not a bad thing.
esp. me.
then again.
u don't hav 2 listen 2 me.
cos y?
would u ask a beggar how 2 earn a mil bucks?
he'll prob say get a million does but tat's way off e point.
enuff said.
