Sunday, April 17, 2005
appearances VS inner beauty
first impressions VS experiential judgement
outside-in VS insideout
spoken words VS hidden thoughts
behaviour VS unshown emotions
everlasting love VS one night stands/ short term flings
superficiality VS interiour richness
tik abt it...
which would u wan?
would u wan ppl 2 everyday remind u of ur outward appearances/behaviours
when inwardly/inherently, there ain't a speck of dust or tarnish within?
(DISCLAIMER ALERT!- i do not say i'm such, i jus imply tat i do my best but alas, i'm
very flawed)
would u wan ppl 2 judge what u show to others or let em get to noe u n feel ur soul n spirit?
yes it might matter
outward dirtiness/untidiness n rowdiness would reflect upon you within
but certain idiosyncracies do not bear such weight
i thank my frens who reminds me of certain things n i apologise 4 a long begotten habit of extreme inpropriety resulting frm extreme beliefs.
i decided frm a young age 2 b simple-minded.
do good, ure good.
avoid conflicts if reason permits such.
most logical/moral path is best taken route (human factor was not included)
stand firm 2 beliefs
these simple principles i followed lik it was water when i was a kid
yet there were many instances where e kid in me would b a kid.
sometimes i feel lik since i was 6 years old i hav 2 of me within
a gd n bad side
e gd side wans 2 help e world
e bad side procrastinates with tat plan
n only a glimmer of hope resided in me when e gd side could stil
tik logically/morally (i use both logic n moral side by side as most logical path is not most moral so when it's indicated in the manner as above, it merely means a decision that balances these 2 aspects)
(ok now i'm pretty stoned so i don't wat e hell i'm talkin as my main pt 2 begin wif this post has lost a lil of its lustre/pt)
ok using a scenario 2 describe my effort 2 do things tat would hav resulted frm reprimands frm friends regardin my outward appearance, (man i wished i could speak as logically n fluently n fluidly as my writings)
my teeth
it was tarnished badly with tar
a years effort of brushin in b4/aft bed, using Theramed whitener n Listerine Mouthwash whenever i can hav helped remove e majority.
for tat i'm glad.
i did not do it bcos i wana look gd
i did it cos i wanted 2 learn e patience n hardwork needed 2 attain such a goal..
now i hav 2 apply this process-taking 2 other more pressing issues of my meagre life
cheap thrills tat r not cheap hav cut off precious monetary fingers on my
ever-aging hands
i must restrain myself.
however
i'll b MUCH less concerned with other aspects that reflect personality than character that ppl
hav pointed out 2 me
my careless disposal tissue-snorting is one bad habit
tat i thank frens who point em out
so when i was gui-lan was jus 2 test my argumentative skills n how much "calmness" i've developed in such stressful situations tat requires me 2 tik on e spot
but my laughter/goofyness/abhorrent rebuttals are not bad habits.
they're me
i behave self-righteous sometimes
so wat?
i only wana teach
i'm sorry if i preach
it's me
accept me for who i am
or is such requests at other's lack of mannerisms, style, "coolness"
possibly an own attack on the self?
u lack em
so can best noe em in others
n dislike em
cos u dislike certain aspects of ur own life?
not aimin anyone
but i jus find it sad some ppl can tell me things lik
u should "talk" this way
u should "dress" this way
u should "walk" this way
u should "this" this way
u should "that" this way
a colleague even suggested i must learn 2 smoke/lie better!
how immoral a tot!
("tot" in more ways than one, considering his shape n size)
army teaches practicality at high cost
sigh...
wat hav e world come 2...
back 2 my title topic
PERSONALITY VS CHARACTER
u focus on e former
u'll b wondering y certain things happen 2 u n u've no solution
u focus on e latter
u'll b wondering y haven't God give me more time 2 do the more of the things i wana do today
rather than tomorrow given the circumstantial constraints(lol... i jus decided 2 add tat for gloss n colour but e more literately inclinced would hav smelt e stench of foul redundancy)
if u care more abt how u dress, talk, walk, eat, sleep, drink, fuck, etc
n how others would tik of YOUR above (pun definately intended)
u'll be sure that e above would b the ONLY things u'll ever b concerned abt
P.S: the last paragraph speaks of simple-mindedness. which seem 2 contradict e point i made tat one must b simple-minded. no the last paragraph reeks of the other term coined by the modern world as "simpleton" n my meaning of such simpleness emits gentle sweet scents tat binds itself 2 the natural world.
go tik abt it
ONLY THESE 2 SENTENCES
PERSONALITY VS CHARACTER
SIMPLENESS VS SIMPLETON(ITY or ESS??? dun even noe if there's adjective form)
GlobalRenegade
Signing out
Buenos Dias
